Step of Age

Ever you thought if He [God] gives our life that we have done unfairly? Actually I ever thought as like that. Not only I am but also every people who did not understand what He [God] had given to me are one of ninety nine attribute’s.  I do not want to explain more about God attribute’s whose we have known that all of that are permanent, yet we want to talk about less of our self within a certain attitude.

In case, either I am or you are ever been facing situation which where we are faced within unfair condition. Somehow, we are blaming God become first thing which we decided that God have done for us. Often our mind thinking about “God..  You are unfair, why am I getting it? I have done well, but it is not which I wanted”. Basically realize or not, people will be coming back to God for every good situation or worst situation depend on their faith.  It will be different attitude if there was same situation and given to two people who distinguishable. 

Every people have special characteristic, from the other characteristic actually just two general characteristic in my opinion. Level of adult is characteristic in my opinion. If somebody still think about problem just used short time to judge it and just wanted what they dream are becoming true to follow their desire.  Step of age is not seeing how olds their age, their environment which have given knowledge that able to make their adult. They will not blame other people if they failed to seize they dreams. They will learn from failure and improve their selves better than before. I think, I have not had character yet as like that. But I try to growth seed in my heart.

I will tell about me myself while I applied and join on psycho test in some big enterprise, I felt if I had been already made unfair condition. In my heart I was saying “God..  You are unfair, somehow just they who graduated from reputable university that You gave opportunity to continue next step [job test and interview]. Whereas, they are have not yet to know my skill exactly. Is it your justice?”. I just realized that I am wrong, I have blamed God if He [God] was unfair to me. I should have long mind if God have best plan to me. Remember.. Sure God would give what we want “He says yes and gives you what you want, He says no and gives you something better or He says wait and gives you the best”.

God.. Forgive me if I ever blame You while what I wanted did not realize immediately. You just postpone my plan, somehow.. Directly I judge You if You are unfair within all my life. I ever prayed to You and asked You to make obvious my plan recently, but I asked to you give me the best. “Innallaha Ma’asshobirin” words that must always I remembered within this life. Wallahu a’lam bisshowab..  

Written by Abdul Aziz Sarwoto

Founder of @ayamrasa_roso

Secretary of Sanggar Islam Al-Hakim

Caretaker of Yayasan Islam Muria